hey you,

im falling ill more frequently lately it doesn't look good.
just yesterday,
i encountered the worst experience of my short-lived life.

was standing in the mrt to go school when suddenly the most terrible,
agonizing headache hit me - as if my skull itself was being pulled out of my head.
so then i was having a hard time balancing and i reallyreallyreally wanted to throw up somehow.
but with God's will, i managed to hang on till i arrived at yio chu kang station.

it's then when things went from bad to worse.
i could hardly walk properly cause everything was a blur
and while trying to go down the stairs outside the station, i would've rolled down like a ragged doll if not for the railing which i barely managed to hang on to.
then it became obvious that i was in no condition to carry on.
made my way to the public restroom and sat on the ground to catch a breather.
by then i think i lost it - i was alone, & afraid.
my head's threatening to give way, i wanted to throw up and i could hardly breathe.

cancelled the thought of calling my mom cause i wasn't about to worry her unnecessarily.
so called up my friend instead, telliing her of my condition.
she was sweet enough to offer to pick me up from the station, but i refused since lecture's gonna start anyway.
spent a few more minutes there before gathering enough strength to continue my way to school.
& alhamdulillah, i arrived safe at sound at the lecture theatre.

but guess my presence was redundant after all,
for i could hardly digest anything in my brain and was only hurting the whole 1h 45 min there.
a kind soul soul gave me a piece of panadol which i took without any water, (was disgusting i swear, but the pain was unbearable)
and i practically spent the whole time trying to keep my consciousness.

went to meet bestfriend after lecture to grab a bite together & just bonded.
and yeahh, that's it.
swallowed a total of 5 tablets yesterday but it ain't getting better still.
and im worried cause i've not started on any of my reports
plus i have no idea how im gonna complete my tutorial on friday's lecture.

this is all damn frustrating in a way.
i've more than enough things on my mind to worry about
without having to deal with a weird sickness every now and then.

(btw,liverpool drew 1-1 with atletico last wed, nerve-wrecking match but fair result in the end i guess. and tonight's against west brom :D)

ps: sometimes i wish i could hide away, looking for a place to getaway.